I once knew a women who had a long term cancer. She’d had it for several decades. Often I would think “If God hasn’t healed her, what chance do I have?” I didn’t realise at the time but I was feeling unworthy of God’s love and his desire to heal me.
I had a false belief system that healing and spiritual maturity were linked. She had a very close walk with the Lord, proficient in numerous spiritual gifts. I couldn’t understand why she wasn’t healed.
Because of this, I disqualified myself.
Are you a huggy touchy-feely Christian? Or do you prefer your ‘personal space?’ I definitely fall into the latter group.
I remember going to New Year’s Eve parties and conveniently going to the bathroom at midnight to avoid those awkward New Year hugs with everyone.
Therapists and doctors claim that hugs are good for our health. We see the healing touch of Jesus in the way He heals the leper. It is not by accident that Jesus chooses to heal him in this way.
Loss and grief have to be the most painful experiences I have ever had; you know that deep hole you feel when someone or something so incredibly priceless is missing from life?
Thankfully as Christians, there is a beautiful and comforting benefit in store for us whenever we feel we’ve been robbed.
For me, coping with illness was only part of the problem. Underneath the physical was the torment of going through life alone with no family, the loss of career, finances, holidays, ability to walk and even sit…I felt like loss was my cruel companion.
One of the hardest things for me in the past 20 years is the loneliness of chronic illness.
In the early days, I struggled on my own with very few people understanding the impact the pain was having on my mental state, making me feel even more isolated.
I wonder if you feel different because you can no longer join in with ‘life’ and the activities you once enjoyed with others have now stopped?
Famous Psychiatrist Karl Menninger believes that sin consciousness is making people ill.
He famously said that if he could convince those in his psychiatric hospitals that their sins were forgiven, 75% of them could walk out the next day.
One of my biggest enemies has to be a sin consciousness, especially the guilt that follows. Sometimes I feel I have a magnet in my head, attracting all the things I’ve ever done wrong, even those ‘perceived’ wrongs, to my thinking. Then I start to ruminate.