I once knew a women who had a long term cancer. She’d had it for several decades. Often I would think “If God hasn’t healed her, what chance do I have?” I didn’t realise at the time but I was feeling unworthy of God’s love and his desire to heal me.
I had a false belief system that healing and spiritual maturity were linked. She had a very close walk with the Lord, proficient in numerous spiritual gifts. I couldn’t understand why she wasn’t healed.
Unconsciously I was feeling too unworthy of God’s love to approach Him.
Do you think you’re not good enough to receive a healing? Maybe you too think your relationship with God needs to be at a certain level? This is exactly what I thought.