I remember when I first became unwell, I knew a women who had a long term cancer. She’d had it for several decades. Often I would think “If God hasn’t healed her, what chance do I have?” I didn’t realise at the time but I was feeling unworthy of God’s love.
I had a false belief system that healing and spiritual maturity were linked. She was a very close walk with the Lord, proficient in numerous spiritual gifts. I couldn’t understand why she wasn’t healed.
Have you ever felt too unworthy to approach God? Do you think you’re not good enough to receive a healing? Maybe you too think your relationship with God needs to be at a certain level? This is exactly what I thought.
Well, no-one was thought to be more unworthy of God’s love than the leper. In fact, lepers couldn’t approach any man, least of all the Son of God. He was completely unqualified to worship or come near to God.
In the Bible, Leprosy was a physical example of what sin does to our lives – it’s destructive and highly contagious. Leprosy is indiscriminate, it separates people from one another, spreads like wildfire and is completely incurable.
Leprosy is a disease that destroys, isolates and leads to death. In our sinful state we were also unfit to worship God. Even when we were at our very best, we still couldn’t reach the perfection of God.
You can understand the leper feeling not good enough to receive a healing from Jesus but he had such a powerful revelation of the grace of Jesus, he approached him despite his condition.
GRACE CAME DOWN
We see here that Jesus was a radical man! He was living under the law where no-one touches lepers yet here he is; after coming down the mountain he reaches out to touch the one who was untouchable and unqualified, showing us that all are welcome.
God accepts us as we are. He doesn’t wait for us to improve ourselves, nor do we have to earn his love or forgiveness. Feeling unworthy of God’s love is our perception, it’s not reality.
God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
The moment Jesus touched the leper, ‘Immediately he was cleansed of his leprosy’. Is this not the power of grace? No matter where we’ve been or what we’ve done, the moment we approach the throne we’re cleansed instantly. Thank goodness Jesus came down! ‘He stooped down and he made us great’. Ps 18:35
Feeling unworthy of God’s love will keep us in a stress state and limit our ability to receive a healing. Thinking we’re unworthy is detrimental to our health because it’s not in alignment with the truth of the Gospel of grace. Christ has made you worthy. We are forgiven ‘for His name’s sake’, not our own.
He…. remembers our sins and our lawless deeds no more.
GOD SEES YOU IN CHRIST
If Christ were sick, would you think he was unworthy to be healed? Of course not, yet God sees you ‘in Christ’.
Be confident that one drop of Jesus’ blood has the power to cleanse the sin of the whole world. There is no sin too great that he won’t forgive. His blood qualifies even the worst of us. It’s the same with healing.
Maybe you think you’re a failure, so you compensate by ‘doing more’ and ‘being better’. This is a driven-ness and a lack of authenticity that keeps that fight-flight state in overdrive making healing impossible.
Perhaps you’ve had a dishonest past or have made too many mistakes so why would God heal you now?
The leper knew his weakness; his emptiness, but didn’t allow this to stop him in coming to Jesus. Jesus was a complete overpayment.
Feeling unworthy of God’s love devalues what Jesus has accomplished for us. We are free to draw near to His throne of grace with freedom and confidence.
“When we feel shame, our bodies goes into toxic stress. That’s why we get that stressful feeling that we’re so familiar with. Your heart will beat faster, the cortisol and adrenaline will be there…..Shame creates neurochemical chaos in your brain. It’s very disruptive to the internal networks of your brain” Caroline Leaf
If you’re wanting God to heal your body, don’t listen to the voice of the accuser telling you you’re not good enough. This is shame. See Jesus right now extending his arm of love and forgiveness.
Will you respond today?
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