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evil conscience

Famous Psychiatrist Karl Menninger believes that an evil conscience is making people ill.

An evil conscience is really the Bible’s definition of being sin conscious. (Heb 10:22)

He famously said that if he could convince those in his psychiatric hospitals that their sins were forgiven, 75% of them could walk out the next day.

I wonder if you feel that sense of disappointment with yourself when you mess up?

Do you ruminate on mistakes and regrets and allow them to steal your present moments? I’m talking about those times when you over analyse something you’ve said or done.

Sometimes this can come through the voice of others. I used to have someone in my life who was convinced I wasn’t healed because of either past or present sin.

Unfortunately I believed her.

If you have people in your life who tell you what needs to change in order to be healed or who are they continually screening you for your hindrances?

This can also be an evil conscience.

Even if you’re not aware, on some level, an evil conscience can sometimes ‘live’ in your unconscious. Your body remembers what the mind cannot.

Bessel Van Der Kolk in his book ‘The Body Keeps The Score’ tells of how we carry the imprints of any trauma in the cells of our bodies…..which creates disease!

 

WHO GETS AN EVIL CONSCIENCE?

 

So why did I struggle with this for so long? My understanding is that perfectionists and those with a massive sense of responsibility are more likely to suffer from guilt or an evil conscience.

Perfectionists have an internal moral code which is irrationally high causing them to feel condemned when they don’t reach their own standards. 

I call this our own personal internal pharisee! He’s our inner critic and his role is to point out all your failings and weaknesses.

He accuses you of things you may or may not have done and he often projects that onto others as well.

I didn’t realise I was so perfectionistic until I started counselling. I came to realise that may internal pharisee was working overtime!

It didn’t take much for me to feel condemned.

The thoughts of ‘I’m not good enough’ can be very controlling. In an indirect way, this is still an evil conscience. If you can relate to this, take a read of WHY FEELING UNWORTHY OF GOD’S LOVE HINDERS HEALING

 

THE ANTIDOTE TO A SIN CONSCIOUSNESS

 

Understanding the forgiveness of Christ, is a great place to start. The Bible tells us we are cleansed forever. (and not until our next sin which is what I used to think.)

For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more. 

Heb 8:12

I love the Message translation: “the slate of our sins is forever wiped clean”

There can be times though, when  we analyse our wrong-doings more than our forgiveness.  God wants us to be Christ conscious, not live with an evil conscience.

There’s no need to beat yourself up or feel bad about those things you’ve gotten wrong either today or in the past. Phew. Praise God for Jesus.

Feeling guilty or bad about ourselves stops us drawing close to God, it stops us having confidence in his healing power. It dilutes faith 1 Tim. 1:19.

 

ONCE AND FOR ALL

 

You don’t make atonement for your sins, neither do you need to keep on confessing them.

Your sins were dealt with once and for all. It’s so important you and I get this right if we’re to live in the freedom Jesus died to give us and have the confidence we need to believe him for healing.

Remember, it’s never about what you deserve, it’s always about what Jesus deserves. Walking around with an evil conscience devalues the sacrifice of Jesus.

We are NOT being holy by clinging onto our guilt because feeling bad about ourselves when we mess up is not the work of the Holy Spirit.

We need to have a greater revelation of the depth of God’s heart torwards us and learn to accept His mercy.

The apostle Paul didn’t feel guilty for murdering a whole load of Christians. He never allowed his past to ruin his future.

He knew the power of redemption; Jesus had taken all his sins and guilt on the cross of Calvary. He understood how to accept God’s gift of no condemnation.

He chose to “let go of what was behind…” and moved forward into his destiny. Wow. God is asking you and I to do the same. 

 

OUR HEARTS CONDEMN US

 

The more we focus on our past mistakes, the bigger they appear to us.

In a way, we keep their memory alive. Keeping a record of our mistakes is like carrying around a rucksack with rocks in it; it weighs us down, hinders us from moving forward, is bad for our health and stops us living a life of liberty.

if our hearts do not condemn us, we have confidence before God

1 John 3:21

The thing is, it’s our choice to carry the heavy load around. You see it’s our hearts that condemn us. (1 John 3:21).

Most people think they have to get rid of all their sin in order for God to heal but this simply isn’t true, you do though, have to know how FORGIVEN you are! 

How tragic that there are people who actually take their guilt to their own deathbeds, not realising that Jesus took this burden from us. He took our sins and our guilt to his deathbed!

THAT’S HOW COMPLETELY BEAUTIFUL HE IS

 

ORIGINS OF GUILT

 

In childhood, whenever we did something ‘wrong’, we were ‘punished’ like with ‘the naughty step’, ‘time out’ or toy confiscation.

As a result, the external punishment system becomes internalised subconsciously so whenever we mess up, we punish ourselves as though we’ve got some kind of internal police officer judging us.

On some level we think we deserve punishment. If we don’t think this consciously, on some level the belief is there. God’s forgiveness towards us is CRAZY! That’s why we make it so complicated.

So how do we just let it go and let God? 

Imagine how incredible it would be if we actually believed the truth that we are completely forgiven, that God isn’t angry at us and nor does he want us punished. That we are worthy of healing just as we are.

The next time he does so, make sure you remind him of the most famous verse on guilt:

“Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus” Romans 8:1

Have a great day.

Lorna

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