Grace For Healing
God wants you well
story of Bartimaeus

The story of Bartimaeus shows us how people pleasing can stop our healing. I love that Bartimaeus had enough shameless faith to ignore the crowds and pursue Jesus.

When I trained in counselling, I was surprised to discover just how much of a people pleaser I was and how my whole life was rooted in shame.
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healing of blind bartimaeus

There’s no doubt for me, that a living in chronic pain impacts how I see myself. This is one of the reasons I love the healing of Bartimaeus.

Pain drags me down, restricts me and stops me living. It’s easy to feel I’m sitting on the sidelines, watching people live.

The healing of Bartimaeus is a story of a man who is sat by the wayside, probably not feeling very good about himself either.

How has your illness affected your self esteem? Do you also see yourself as inferior or as though life has somehow forgotten you?
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living with chronic disease

When you think of how you’re living with chronic disease, are you allowing the Spirit in you to be in control, or have your negative coping strategies conditioned you to a place of the underdog?

In other words, are your survival skills running the show? 

If so, that’s completely ok and you are not alone. You have amazing protective parts which are helping you survive.

My survival strategies involved depending on other people to do things for me like the housework or the supermarket shopping and I would often lash out at my poor old mum.

I always felt better afterwards as I’d released a whole load of anger.

I wanted to talk about my situation all the time; the comfort from others helped me survive. I thought about suicide constantly, this caused me to feel calmer as it was my way out of the hell I was in. 
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hidden illness

Isn’t it frustrating when you’re living with an hidden illness, yet people think it’s quite minor because you look so well and healthy?

But the more negative attention you receive for having symptoms, the harder it will be to heal.

I’ve had experience of this. I remember once being in a church service where the minister invited the congregation to lay hands on the sick. No-one wanted to lay hands on me. Why? Because there was an elderly man with cancer in the room.

The church judged that this was worse.

I remember being so devastated. I’d lost 10 years of my life by this point, the man with cancer had only been ill for a few weeks.
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healing at the pool of bethesda

The healing at the pool of bethesda teaches us how to position our hearts for a miracle healing.

This poor man had suffered for 38 years which caused him to spiral down into self-pity. His eyes were on the severity of his situation. He was closed to any forward thinking. In all honesty, I think I’d be exactly the same.

Can you identify with this?

When I was unwell,  I thought it was so unfair that my friends could experience marriage, holidays or careers whilst I could barely function.

All I could see was all the things that had been taken away from me. The loss and grief consumed me so much, I ended up crossing over the line into pity.
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meaning of Bethesda

The meaning of Bethesda is House of Mercy.

I believe the Holy Spirt is telling us though the story of the lame man healed at the pool of Bethesda, that if we want a healing, we find it in the house of God, the Church.

The environment you’re in could determine whether or not you receive your miracle. I ended a friendship once, because whenever I was with this person, I felt terrible about myself, as though my best wasn’t good enough.

This was not a healthy environment for me to thrive in.

It seemed to take me weeks to recover from her words. We have neuroceptors in our nervous system which constantly scan our environments for safety or danger. If we’re in a situation where we’re sensing danger, we will not heal.
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what does faith without works mean?

The movie Soul Surfer tells the true story of 13 year old professional surfer Bethany Hamilton, who lost her arm to a shark bite. 

It looked as though she would never surf again and certainly not be able to partake in professional competitions. Bethany refused to allow her situation hinder her.

She pushed pass the stares and the disbelief of others when she relearnt to surf with just one arm. Bethany kept on training, believing she was well able to win professional competitions once again.

She continued moving forwards towards her goal. What an amazing and inspirational woman of God.
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believe God's Promises

Are you struggling to believe God’s promises because you’ve been ill for many many years? The story of admiral Jim Stockdale will help you to expect miracles in the midst of long term suffering.

Jim Collins’ book ‘Good to Great’ tells of something called the Stockdale paradox. 

Admiral Jim Stockdale was in the US Navy during the Vietnam War. He was shot down and held captive for 8 years in the Hanoi Hilton, the infamous POW prison where he was tortured over 20 times. 

In a public interview after his release he was asked why he survived and others didn’t. 
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sacrifice of praise

The leper in who approached Jesus in Matt 8, fell on his knees and chose to worship Jesus, he knew the benefits of praise. 

When Jesus came down from the mountainside, large crowds followed him. A man with leprosy came and knelt before him and said, “Lord, if you are willing, you can make me clean. Matt 8:1-2

 Despite the extremeness of his suffering, he still humbled himself and praised God. Wow! That’s powerful!
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feeling unworthy of god's love

I once knew a women who had a long term cancer. She’d had it for several decades. Often I would think “If God hasn’t healed her, what chance do I have?” I didn’t realise at the time but I was feeling unworthy of God’s love and his desire to heal me.

I had a false belief system that healing and spiritual maturity were linked. She had a very close walk with the Lord, proficient in numerous spiritual gifts. I couldn’t understand why she wasn’t healed.

Unconsciously I was feeling too unworthy of God’s love to approach Him.

Do you think you’re not good enough to receive a healing? Maybe you too think your relationship with God needs to be at a certain level? This is exactly what I thought. 
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